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Have u ever wished that ur office was some place much more peaceful than the having to look at the traffic and hectic human work taking place around you?  Have u ever wished that when ur stressed out at work u can go stroll in a forest trail to cool it off? This is what my office is all about.

This is my 1st week in Forest Research Institute Malaysia (FRIM). I am a research officer here. Anyway, the place where I am working now is extremely different from the places that I worked before. Before working here I have always been working in the busy malls, restaurants and factory. When coming here, the first thing that I noticed was that, in here human hussle of the metropolitan world is shut off. It is really much more calmer here. Eventually, FRIM is located in a secondary forest. Here there are lots of trees from the common flower plants u plant at home to the very rare of trees only located in the far reaches of our country. The feeling of working here is really pristine and peaceful. I can still hear the crickets as I am typing this. The air is always cool especially in the morning and looking at the greenery in the morning it is said very healthy for the eyes as well. Lucky me huh.

So that is the environment. Surely I work in an office building right. I am under the Enviromental Physiology and Recreational Impact Division (EPR). Under this division I am supervised by a Dr and have 3 other staff to help me out. Currently, I am going to do some researchs on peat swamp and it significance to global warming. I was not sure at first why is this item needed studying but soon found out how this ecosystem has a very unique attribute that needs looking in too. For my sake, I am really looking forward for this new thing.

So, researchers don’t sit on their table for too long. Some of my tentatives will be doing sampling at forests across Malaysia. Just for your infomation, I will be going to Sekinchan and Pekan to do some work there. Me going into a forest. It is a dream because i really like adventure, and  the combination off working + adventure actually make a good chemistry for me. Hope of me being optimistic here doesn’t blow up on my face very time soon.

Therefore, I may consider staying in this field for quite some time as I feel I am passionate about doing research and take joy and pride of what I do with it. But I hope if I am really interested in this area, I hope to gain a full employment either working in the same institution or might go to other international network like the UN. What a dream.

Anyhow when all of us have dreams. No matter what ever it maybe, it takes courage and a lot of hard work to get what we want. I am willing to do anything in my power for my dream but off all else it is down to the Almighty to permit me having what I want and to Him I pray for what is good for me.

     This is a story of a boy…he came from the village where the name of where he lives is based on the physical nature of the steam there, crooked that is. He is from Batu Pahat and his village is Parit Bengkok…not that the parit is still bengkok it is just a name…this story is not about his crooked stream at home…it is about him…since secondary school..this boy never stayed at home much…he went to boarding since 13 up till the SPM….though sometimes he regretted the move to Muar to study…he still hold the belief that there is a plan unknown to him…his SPM in Science Muar enabled him to further his studies in Malacca…for 1 year he was in matriculation…knowing he was not good enough to be a MD he just tried his best to get into a Public High Learning Institution…finally he made it in 2003 to do his bachelor in a very famous university in his country, University of Malaya
     In UM, he wanted to get into chemistry considering he was good in matriculation so he tried to do it…for 3 semesters he failed to show good results…he can only blame himself for not trying hard enough…so he decided he should go for another stream…considering his options and also recommendations…he went into geology for the 2nd semester in his 2nd year…yeah the faculty that rocks…but his head could not absorb so absurd studies so he failed himself again…But then this angel came and told him try to do SPAS in biology…and considering this was his only chance to perform he made the move to ISB…he knew he was good in biology since secondary school he knew why didn’t he got into this stream much more earlier…God knows what is best for him and he sent her to save this confused human of his uncertainties…thank you
    So life in biology was like 2nd nature to him…not only he was well aware of the target set upon him he was much more dedicated with some support coming from this angel…so he defy what was history to him and found new ground to it his own…a new fascination came that he knew was inevitable…the element that permits life on earth has made his mind to further study it and this fascination become a passion destined to change the present…doing a thesis in water related matters made him aware that there is more than just a common necessity to life that can be learn from H2O…finally graduated with a CGPA taht almost doubled of what he got in his freshman year made much more fire in him to strive for more success and looking back that the days of his failings will always remind him that never to give up hope and always persevere.
     Right after graduation he got a job related to what he had studied..though it was not of his passion he was greatful and fortunate to have secured employment this early…a Japanese company gave him an opportunity to learn his trade…for 6 months he learn what is it like to have a career…he now knew that learning does not end after graduation thus it still continues in work…though unfortunate for him not to continue his services with this giant company he is well aware that the future is not bleak for him but bright of more opportunities…for now he is just waiting for a chance given to him again to show his worth either to strive and be a good employee not only to serve but also to bring change or turn academic sharing and giving ideas that the young guns of tomorrow should think out of the box and not be too comfortable of the more familiar waters…so for now the story is hanging at a point of unknown plot but the ending will always be the same…this boy will surely live out his dream and passion together with every person that he holds dear…

    Let’s see..what to write is always not that hard especially u have a tendency to talk to yourself not that ur crazy but sometimes confused, mad or just mad hahaha…Looking at where I am now, I can say I am still not satisfied of what I am doing…I aw very grateful for having to secure a job right after I send my thesis without having to wait to long to earn my full month salary of a graduate…it seems that the thrill is gone when I started working…Currently I am an executive in a MNC looking after their HSE system…though it is related to what i studied I am not that keen in to this part of my field… looking back at the times when I was studying…what i loved about is the adventure to fulfill the courses…especially the thesis…i enjoyed doing my project…though some commented that i was lazy (don’t we all)…i enjoyed the boat rides…chemical burns…late nights at the lab and the horrible overtimes in front of the PC doing my dissertations…haha..those were the days…but now i just go to work doing the same old thing…sit in front of my office PC from 755-1730++…what can i say…the environment around the factory is boring and the hospitality is drop dead insane…maybe i am still new there but looking at the situation i am in…sometimes i feel these guys won’t give face for a freshmen to make a mistake…i still remember…the 2nd week i was there i got scolded by a manager that was not my boss due to an error not done by me…how was i to know her car park changed and was not updated in the system…i just got in the company a fortnight a go you b****!!well that was that…the most obvious stupidity about what i do is that the big boss(from Japan) wants me to know their security system and ensure it comply to the Labour Act (what ever that is)…what the hell… i only took environment in my degree…can’t they read english on my resume???so i just followed the order though it is kinda hard understanding what actually he wants me to do…but hey as long as i get my paycheck i am happy….hahaha
    Well thats sums it up about my work currently…even at the moment i am looking to ditch this job…not that i hate the job as an EMS coordinator but when ur being bullied by the SHO to do HIS WORK makes me wonder who’s the Green Card holder here…anyways…i am hoping i can be a water scientist…i am very keen on water…though i have no regrets if i have to further on other elements if the opportunity arises…i just can’t live on staying in front of the PC everyday without any adventure in my work…for now i can just hope for the best in the current job and put the thought of being a scientist as a lifelong dream…

    Its been like sometime eh…kinda hectic this last couple of months but it is almost over now. If your wondering what is it, I am just about done with my studies. At the final hurdle you might say. No wonder lots of my friends say that you better start early on your final year project but guess my ears were full of wax during that time. Anyway I am about to submit the research soon after getting the draft finalize. Remembering back of all the work taken to do it, cut and bruises from sampling and lab work, long travels and also other problems of either personal or business, I really enjoy doing this research. Hopefully the results will be as rewarding as the all the trouble I went to making it.
    During this final project, I was also needed to make a presentation in front of lecturers to evaluate my work. Though having a lot of comments that made me more aware of what other things I need to put in the actual report, it was during the Q&A session that made me still in awe up till this day. Compared to the other guys that did their research in the normal semesters that only involved 2-3 lecturers during their 30% evaluation, I have to present mine in front of almost a full team of soccer players. During the Q&A session, I was like from the White House having ended my speech and was attack by reporters to answer their questions or giving comments. But this time the journalists are my dear Profs and Drs that I need to answer to and boy did they bite back. What an experience to be ask by so many people in just minutes was a first time for me especially from those that have been teaching me all this time. I wont forget that moment for a few years to come.
    Since I am going to end my studies soon, I also have started to apply for work. Its kinda hard to get positions when your a fresh grad and even harder if your from the environmental field since our country is not yet there concerning this matter. So the jobs are few though having went to some interviews does give me a boost not to stop looking cause I can feel that I may get a chance sooner or later. I hope.
    Anyway, I think this is my last para for this period of writing. To you who have been reading this by the way thanks and if there are any comments do drop a line. For friends, sorry if I haven’t contacted you guys for a while, kinda busy these days. So take care everyone and enjoy life as you want it to be. Cheers

Hmm…how long has it been since i last update my blog…anyway the mid term break just ended and i didn’t even had a day to spare. During the break i was actually working as a part time exam attendant at UTAR. Hmm its kinda fun for me coz for the first time my part time job doesn’t need me to use my energy alot and the fun on seeing the confuse and determined faces of students in exams are quite entertaining u might say. During invigilating when i got sleepy i turned up with my own way to stay awake. Just imagine sitting for 2 hours for an exam.Huarh,so BOring!! WhEn i got sleepy i sit in front and watch all the students. Just to get my eyes broadened i browse through everyone making ratings on fashion, hair style and also their looks.hehe.Compare every amoi i see is fun though especially when ur tired.haha

Anyway enough with work at UTAR hopefuly i can work there again someday. hehe.Now the final half of the semester is going to start. The bad news is the soccer leagues just kick off. huhu with all the assigments i need to deal with maybe got to sacrifice some don’t i.hehe.all i care is man u and i believe we can be champions again. surely sir alex want something before he retire as manager rite,haha.

Hmm i’m thinking rite now…if i wasn’t taking a degree in science what will i do???i really like to eat.okay i’m skinny due to my high metabolisme but at least i can eat anything without worrying getting fat. I also enjoy cooking though i just know a few things to cook.Still i’m glad that i’m brave enough to cook something coz i just think what i want and just do it. Sometimes i even add some ingredients that i think no1 uses them in certain cooking.Anyway with all thse experimenting so far evrything is eatable.hehe.becozmy passion fro food and cooking,maybe i might be going into taking a certification to becoming a cook aka being a master chef in particular.hehe.i like pastries and choclate. so being a master in using choclate in my pastry masterpiece would be something rite…anyway thats just a thought.i love what i’m doing and learnig now.don’t worry about it coz i try my best to get a job inline with what i studied.just now i met a friend of mine she just graduated last august but still haven’t found a job.wonder what my luck be the next time i’m where my friend is rite now. just hope something will turn out.huhu.

anyway there r more to bable about but it seems that i need stop before i over slept and miss the classes tomorrow..to any1 reading this have a nice day ahead and cherish every moment in u’r life coz it only comes once.cheers to all.

            Wassup people!! Wonder how many people eventually read my blog…anyway I’m just feeling really cold at the moment knowing it just rained outside and I’m stuck at the fac com lab doing my assingments…so here is what i call a really quick pit stop to write some nonsense…haha..
            The semester just kicked off though it is already week4 now but the paper work i have to do for taking a lot of subjects this time of round kinda like a sitting in the office as a really busy cleck…i’m feeling like a robot to do be a student in the weekdays and a store part-timer in the week ends it is quiet challenging…but hey everyone got their own story in life so this one is mine. Though how hectic it maybe I’m really lucky that there are people to support me especially when I really needed to find a reason to keep on fighting….who ever u r thanks…>)
            Well this August is the convocation festival in UM….i’m still stuck studying here while sum of my friends are going to graduate soon…huhuhu….pity for me not to finish but its my fault anyway to deny what i’m good at the first place ITS Biology NOT Chemistry!!!…anyway to all my pals Congratulations and have a bright future ok…i hope i can see all of u during ur moment of pride till then i can just hope rite…haha…cherish the moment k…
            Its really cold in here and im getting shiverry rite now…August is also a month of celebration…the  annual celebration of someone special in our hearts are never forgotten rite and mine is  a Leoness to get a special wish from me eventhough i got a field trip during that day but still i get a chance coz that person is coming horray!!…and at the end of the month my favourite cousin gets married…i haven’t seen him like in 2 years and i just knew he got married just recently. God, he is just a year older than me and  we’re really close together especially when nagging our late grandpa for junk food…haha…i miss those time but how time goes on and the older we get and the more dreams we want to live up in our life…i hope i get to live my own dreams…yeah!!!
            Anyway i think i just sign off my moment of nonsense here…maybe till some other day when i get a chance i may continue my nonsense a bit more…to all that knows me have a good life and cherish every moment of it with joy and people that matters most….cheers

Wonder whats crazy…haha its just me coz for the first time in my life I finished reading a really thick novel…Dan Brown’s Deception Point..just wanna tell u that…haha…actually i’m searching for some material to complete my undone assignment for this special sem…hectic week ahead but hey life goes on rite…to all my frens have fun at whatever ur doing…working,lazying at home,holidays or etc have a good time while at it k…got 2 go now still lots to write but stick to my priorities first k…chow

Remember…remember the how did that movie sound at the end…i’m just trying to make a good opening but really this is a flop ain’t it…hehe…so the finals is over and i just laying around u doing nothing except during weekends as i go to my part time job…hehe…anyways during these days it is either boring or fun day…no more bz days…hurra…
    Today me and my buddies went out to catch a movie…guess what it’s MI:3 on its 1st day yeah…it was me who made the idea and it was fun anyways though getting wet going back from it is not that fun…haha…but truly i enjoyed my time there coz i was going with 2 frens that have done studying and wonder when will i get to hang out with them again…thanks for all those wonderful times guys…and eventually i’m having my last moments living life in my college coz moving out strting this short sem…huhu sad but its life.
    today i just sat at this screen and browsing around…i wonder how was life anyways after this…just get done with it rite…"how do u keep memories??"…i really just don’t know the answer i guess coz for i sumtimes just can’t hv any memories to recall but at certain moments those past that truly effects us the most that always arise…agree or not that is what i think…
    i had a time that i had thought about the times that i should done better in life but didn’t and suffer for it now..if only i knew but actually i do but only i was just distracted or blown off by the wind of change and the ecstacy of short term pleasures…i wish i had wake up that time…i jus wish things were different…but i guess why do u need to look back too much when the future is for us to pave…people say it’s destined for someone to be sumthg or get sumthg out of this life but i guess sometimes i think we r the people that determine our own destiny…if only i thougt about that earlier but hey there’s a lot or routes to get to our destiny right…
    hmm what am i writign today…firtsly saying bout my days after the exams and not going to philosophy…what a helluva weird mind…like a rollercoaster…haha…so before i wrote a disasster on my page better i sign off now…so hepi holidays peps…se ya’ll next session…cheers
   

    I jut feel a bit confuse today.got many things happening with my life actually and i feel really tight right now.Wish i can just stay in a resort or have a quick holiday outer space not knowing what’s happening around.
    I really feel some kind of confuse on a lot of things rite now.Is it the assignments or something else.Whatever it is it really makes me having a really high temper to reckon with.I feel guilty to the people close to me for my attitude and maybe i’ll pay for it sooner or later.Maybe sooner i guess.I don’t care what happens i really wish things r different.Stress is really something huh.
    Exams coming up and i hope i can do my best this time.Much better than the last final exam.But i maybe loosing a bit of morale due to some distractions but hey when things doesn’t go well just have some faith that it will turn out well in someway or another.Anyway gud luck to u guys on ur finals as well ok.
    I relly feel i’m just writing something worthless coz i jus write what i feel and at the moment i feel really bad.Sori for making u reading this but i just wanted to get this out of me.Signing off.

Hey hey…i’m renovating my blog rite now…taking white as my main colour coz need to feel relax…white is cool for me…so check out my posts anytime soon…(hope i have time to rite…hehe) so cheers to all…